He is Kirk, He is purple

The day got over early, at 2 friggin thirty, and I wasn't happy. Slept 5 hours straight and now I am going to be awake all night. I haven't been writing at all for the past few weeks - reason - nothing significant happened. Yes the reason is that lame.
Complete chaos. I have never been this confused. I'm basically confused about everything at the moment. Do I swear or not, do I speak or not, do I hate the bickering-overtly-pretentious woman or not.
The sky seems clear, nice, but one more of those jet streaks would be nice to see...ooh evening - the sky is all nice and colorful. Shit. I don't have the slightest idea of what I want. And when I look back over my life, everything seems like a whirlwind of incidents and occurences, none of which I remember precisely.
For my Skills for Communication class, I drew a complete blank when I tried to relate the topic at hand to any life incidents. I realised it has all vanished somehow. And now is that time again when I get that gut wrenching feeling in my pit of a stomach, hollow and contracting.
I should be doing a lot of things. But the thought scares all pretence out of me. The very fact that the next day is going to be exactly same as today blocks my mind completely. I no longer know where I am headed. Things have changed over the past months, and I can feel the sense of responsibility take over. I am losing focus on purpose, but I don't know where that is going to take me. I try to be strong, and it works. But, sadly that's all that works.
Sometimes, while in class, I look around me, and I realise in a wicked instant how different I am. I try not to get to agitated by the concept, but the frustration takes over gradually when the Proffesor ennumerates an incorrect function to a certain restriction enzyme.
Expectations, whew! Bad , bad idea. Well I'll rant about that some other time. I need to get creative for that. And strain my memory.

I thought of ending with something nice. My Communications proff said something nice,in Urdu today - a couplet. The point is, I dont remember that either.